Much of our time is spent in anticipation for the next phase of life. My elementary school teachers frequently told us that fifth grade was the “no joking, preparation for middle school” period. My middle school teachers said the same thing about eighth grade, except the word middle was replaced with high. I’m in my last year of high school now. And just as I waited to get into middle school and into high school, I’m waiting to get into college. Funny how my teachers didn’t say anything this time around.
I suppose it would be pointless to declare that I’m afflicted with senioritis. Showing is better than telling, and for almost every senior, there’s plenty of evidence to go around. Might it be caused by the anticipation? After all, this anticipation is exponentially greater for the college-bound.
Yes, I hear you, all they way in the back there, with your “Thank you, Captain Obvious.” But consider this: spending most of the time waiting is hardly a way to live. Being a senior, I don’t spend much time doing anything besides waiting. Every day, I just drag myself to class, sit through bored as all hell, and go home. A few days involve “extracurricular activities” which really don’t strike me as all that interesting either.
Not an extraordinary lifestyle by any means. I think we should, in the immortal words of John Keating, carpe diem. You know, make the most of our time while we still have it. Seize the day. There’s so much to be done out there, so much to get accomplished, so much to experience. It’d be damned shameful to let it all slip away..
But then again, I’m being mildly hypocritical; I neither have the willpower nor the tenacity to drag myself out of this interim. I’ve been trying to find something I truly love to do for so long that I’ve come to believe seeking it out is more tedious and painful than discovering it is rewarding. Carpe diem is nothing more than an ideal.
So why exactly do I choose to wait? Because not everything can simply be sought out. Because some things are worth waiting for. When the time comes, I will live.